Poetry is like music to me
I can’t stop letting it get to my heart
Can’t stop letting it inspire me

Poetry is like chocolate to me
I can’t get enough of it
And every piece of poetry
That I write
That I hear
Fulfills me

Poetry is like a boyfriend to me
I want to get emotional and expressive with it
I want poetry to like me

What if im only happy
because i am faking these moments?
moments of happiness
meant to be enjoyed...
yet i keep stressing--
--stressing over being relaxed.
why can t i fully relax?
why can t i let go?
but im so sweet and kind and calm.
i am okay
i am relaxed
why must it sound so odd?
why can t that be me?

Spring rain on a bed of flowers
this new welcoming season is here
my favorite season
bringing a new scent,
flowers that blossom
smiles that are hard to look away.
a new season
to forget about the cold
the stress
the sadness
that winter brought.

When a boy breaks your heart
go your comfortable place
go do what you love to do
go make memories
make compliments to other people
feel good about yourself
get your self esteem up
LoVe YoUrSeLf!
=]

Veins suffocating the air
Breathless
is this person going to
break down?
Black heavy pupils
so tired
is this person going to
pass out?
can't even smell the air
the nose can t take it
the allergy, the pollen

I am seeing you in a brand new light
How come I've never seen you
this way before?
I am hurting
Like you ve been hurting
All along you have been there for me
But I haven t dared
To let anyone in
I ve been pushing you away
Tonight I see you
Like you see me
You don't know this yet
Because this time
I will take it slow
I will let fate happen
I won t regret...

Something is driving me crazy, mad, anxious...the apocalypse. I want to live a normal life do all the things that I want to do. What is the point of working hard for stuff right now that I won't even be able to enjoy in the future? I want to live I want my life to be fulfilled! I'm going to college right now to get my dream job in the future and hoping that I'll meet the right guy for me and have a family....but none of those things cannot matter anymore. I want to travel the world and do anything crazy i want to try stuff that I've never tried before and live and most importantly be happy. But i cant just drop out of school and do all these stuff. I don't believe you can put a date to the end of this world but i do believe this world's end is coming and there's an end to everything.

So what are your plans? Are you guys worried at all?

I am so proud of myself this semester..
I really am
I can always try more but I am satisfied
and that is all that matters.
I have grown so much explored so much.
Cared little and moved on..
I am happy and single
I am loved by my family and friends.

There are many things that happen in one day to be depressed and drag that one sad thought. For example, a sunny day, a great meal, a compliment that you got, a cute outfit, a good grade on a test or a paper, how fast you can get to class without being late (i think that's pretty amazing), being unique, knowing that you are unique and appreciating the fact that you are not boring, a new song, going out with friends, a new movie, reading your favorite book, instead of doing your homework on the last minute you actually managed your time!

I totally understand the stress of life and the ups and downs but everyone in this world has problems and it is important that we see these problems as a way to make us stronger not weaker.

I urgue you to never give up in life when it gets tough because then you are not giving yourself the chance to grow and expand your achievements, which if you are like me you want to make a difference in this world by doing what you can do not the unrealistic view because you can't be a hero to the whole world.

Please feel free to message me if you desire if you need someone to talk to that is part of the reason i made this lj.

ps. put a smile on your face make the world a better place =]

Needles ripping at my skin
fire burning in my eyes
blood dripping from my wounds
a skin feeling so hard
it almost doesn't feel human
but more of a tree texture.

Rain falling so hard
so wet
so cold
so brutal
penetrating deep inside
it hurts
yet i become fragile
knowing that i exist
that i must protect myself.

Fire deceases
my blood dries
my muscles ease
my body relaxes
my mind wonders longingly
of happy thoughts, finally
after the darkness disappears.

Fogging up someone's glasses
Making them lose their breath
killing them slowly
as their breathing gets slower and slower
then finally drops.

Winter doesn't wait
As i put my heavy sweater on
put a fake smile on my face
and go on
move on and forget about the fall
especially forget about summer.
Those sweet summer nights
rushing out of work
to come see you and only you.
i wish winter didn't have to come so soon
i'm starting to get blisters and sores
my head feels so heavy
my stomach not so happy
my heart so dark and blind...

I don't know what I want anymore
Just when i thought i found myself
I lost myself in this other world
Half the times i feel intoxicated
Missing you
Wanting my happiness back
The beautiful smile on my face
Not knowing if i want to try anymore
in this dating world
getting hurt so many times
leaves me defenseless
not wanting to take those risks
yet there is this part in me
that still wants to try
because who wants a lonely boring depressing life anyways?
i want to see what the future has in store for me
it's never too late
for a new start
a new beginning
but what if i just want a rebound guy?
I'll be looking at them
i'll be comparing them to you
I won't ever have you
you are with a new girl
Is it healthy to have a rebound guy?
But i'm not interested in anyone
i just want to get over my ex!

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from
heartache.

Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship
that's not meant to be.

Slower is better.

I don’t even get the chance to break down,
What could I have been thinking?
I was just thinking about the town
I didn’t want the town sinking and shrinking.

What could I have been thinking?
Must I say more? I was worried.
I didn’t want the town sinking and shrinking
Everyone in town was hurried.

Must I say more? I was worried.
I hadn’t seen you in awhile; I was missing you.
Everyone in town was hurried
Maybe you would be ok after all out of the blue.

I hadn’t seen you in awhile; I was missing you.
I was just thinking about the town;
Maybe you and the town would be ok after all out of the blue.
I didn’t even get the chance to break down.

Looking at this painting
I see all these bright colors
But I feel nothing.
Yet I can’t just feel nothing
I am at ease
Relaxed from any worries
That are currently stressing me out.
I have scattered emotions
Yet no emotions at all
Because I feel nothing.

This place is distant,
I start to daydream.
Such a fairytale
Nonexistent
An invisible rainbow.
A big entrance
A passageway
One castle
One life
No death, no ending
No past, no future
Just the present.

I am time traveling
I am lost
Somewhere out there.
No one is there
No one can help me.

All of a sudden
I am surrounded by doves
I feel like I’m in heaven
I am so happy here
Is this what love feels like?
Maybe I am in two places
At the same time.
I just don’t know
What is real and not real.

What is beauty but the sight of a flower
Can be charming and pretty and can look sweet
When it blooms and shines and is given power
Love the music to my ears and the beat.
To relax, to feel good, to finally be in love
No pressure, no stress, feeling ever so light
So heavenly, so pure, so lovely, just like a dove
Gentle, tender, yet love is embraced so very tight.
Beauty is seen in the light but also in the night
A man so kind that a woman is pleasured
A beauty in love spending time in the twilight
Being in love makes you feel lucky and treasured.
This is what beauty is: open trust and satisfaction
A beauty so great within; a never ending attraction.

A soul is not often given out
It is precious
Costly expensive to repair
Once broken.

It is hard for you
To separate feelings and to realize
What is real and not real
You would rather enjoy lonely evenings.

Those emotions deep inside
Sometimes they feel heavenly
Other times
It makes you run away from the world.

A soul so big so beautiful
You get scared
If your match is staring
Right back at you.

Your once beautiful soul
That once was,
Someone took advantage of
Broke you into two pieces.

I’m hundreds of feet in the air now.
The sky is dark,
I’m racing towards something
Climbing up an infinitely long spiral staircase.
My sister knows our fate
It’s terrifying and dreadful.
I’m afraid and I ignore it,
I don’t even get the chance to break down.
Volcanoes erupt and winds roar violent storms of dust.
Darkness engulfs me and all becomes black,
The only hope ran beside me.

Getting off the Alitalia airplane
Coming out of the Palermo airport
Stepping foot into my childhood world
Family embraces
People change but places still look the same.

Remembering the house
Where my family and I used to live in
The house was the same
It was just abandoned
Now unwelcome.

New clothing styles
New hair styles
New singers
Baby cousins
New memories.

Cheese, bread, and wine at the table
Telling jokes and laughter
Endless days
Lazy nights
Espresso at night too!

Festivals
Big weddings
Dancing the nights way
Trips
Pictures.

The beach
The bars
Gelato a pistacchio
Bathing suits
The hot weather.

Playing cards
Watching soccer games
Especially Juventus against Inter
Basically loving life!

My old room
My old toys
My old books
The backyard that once was ours
The balcony with the beautiful palm tree
Living between my two uncles, aunts, and cousins.

Italian food
Recipes,
Or just what each of us in the family
Made as our own specialty!

The place can get old and fall apart
We can never be forgotten
Being loud is our name
In the place we once lived in
People change but places still look the same.